“SHAME ON YOU!!!” – That was the first thing she screamed at me when I answered. It was so unexpected and in such a tone it made my heart drop to the floor. I was so confused. “Wait a minute, WHAT? Why shame on ME???”
The rest of that conversation I’d rather not get into details about. It was basically her accusing me of questioning GOD’s existence and me unsuccessfully trying to correct her. It wasn’t GOD I questioned, it was all these ideas of truth that I felt I needed to question. I wasn’t content with labeling myself a catholic just because that’s what I was told to do. However, with so many religions claiming to be the “truth” how was I to choose? I knew one thing – they couldn’t ALL be the one true religion.
I was so ignorant; I really thought Islam was very alien. Can you imagine how relieved I was when I learned of how similar it was to what I had already known? The more I learned about Islam, the more I wanted to know. I would ask all these questions and the only religion that had answers that made sense was Islam. Nonetheless, even with all this information I was not completely comfortable with converting.
All my life I had been told that the only way to GOD is through Jesus. So when I came upon Islam it left me in a state of being apprehensive and fearful. This resulted because of distinct differences of opinion on what to follow in order to reach Heaven. Who am I to question GOD? If He decided to come to earth or have a son, who am I to say it didn’t happen?
I needed a sign. So after asking GOD to please help me know what the truth is; I opened my Quran and got my answer.
Quran (39:4) “If GOD wanted to have a son, He could have chosen whomever He willed from among His creations. Be He glorified; He is GOD, the One, the Supreme”
That was the first thing I read after praying for a sign. Alhamdulilah! There it was at that very moment my epiphany. Twelve days later, on September 13th, 2009, I made my shahada.
I am now finally at peace Alhamdulillah!